I understand you questioning my statement completely, I would do the same. I'm constantly stepping outside myself to try and figure it out and I just can't. I won't say that everybody hates me because it's not true. I still have the respect of the other NCO's and the Marines in my platoon, and the rest of the Battalion. Some of the NCO's are saying I should request mast, because they don't like what they see happening. Now I don't know if it's just me being naive or not but I strongly believe that my SNCO's are messed up in the way they do some things. They've all earned a horrible reputation in my battalion and still carry on like their shit doesn't stink. I will say that I have made my share of mistakes, nothing major, but things that I did and learned from. My record was crystal clean up until I informed them of my intentions of making a lat move. About 3 days later I received a counseling sheet. I won't air to much dirty laundry on an open post like this, I don't feel it appropriate. However if you would like to know more...PM me and I'll talk about it.
I'm all about playing the cards you get dealt. However right now I feel like I'm at a stand still when I can see what I need to do. Everything is in order and ready to be put through, but I'm just not sure if I should. I'm passionate about this lat move and I'm going to do it, I'm just not sure when would be the best time. I have no idea what to do and I've attempted on getting guidance from the Marines above me, however it's like everytime I talk to them, they answer a question without answering the question.