I realized this in 1992 with William J. Clinton. Then Dick Cheney made me realize that lack of honor and integrity isn't partisan.
I was stunned that President Clinton didn't get fired for committing adultery and then lying about it under oath. I was very naive back then.
And then I noticed how many rich and powerful people across the political spectrum got away with things that the rest of us would get hemmed up over. Their world isn't our world and their rules aren't our rules. I'd like it to be different but it isn't.
I was completely disinterested in politics for most of my adult life. In fact, I never saw myself as anything other than an American and a service member until I was in grad school and my identity started to get constantly thrown in my face. And then I began to see myself as something else. I considered myself a centrist but was repeatedly told I couldn't be. I could be right (well, "left"), or I could be wrong (racist, misogynist, homophobic, check-your-privilege). I wasn't interested in politics, but politics sure was interested in me. It went a little like this:
But you know what really did it for me? It was the personal attacks. The casual contempt and the smug self-righteousness leveled against me for having a different opinion, or for simply asking honest questions. For being judged for what I look like, what I do, and where I come from. For being seen as the enemy, and the only type of person it's safe to satirize, smear, and degrade. The hypocrisy of it all.
You know what I noticed that they never did? They never asked "why." At least not in any intellectually-honest way. They didn't care. They only wanted to attack, to destroy. Because it felt good. But there's only so much of that one can take before defense turns to offense. We saw it unfold in real life. We saw it unfold on this site.
One of my favorite
quotes from Maya Angelou is "“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” How do you think it made millions of Americans feel, for over a decade, of being told that they suck, that they're terrible people, that they're irredeemable because of the color of their skin or because of some other unearned "privilege?"
There's a saying often attributed to Muhammed Ali that sums up his his views about fighting in the Vietnam war. I can't quote it directly because it involves the one word that I, as a white man, can never say, even to simply repeat it in context:
Muhammad Ali - in his own words (in the section on "refusing to serve in the US Army")
Why did I vote for Trump? For many reasons. But to paraphrase Muhammed Ali, one of those reasons is "Trump never called me a racist/homophobe/misogynist/Nazi for ten straight goddamn years." Because I'm not any of those things, and I'm tired of getting told that I am.