Let me just start this by explaining who I am first and where I'm at in my life. I'm a high school student in my Junior year with the plan of becoming a Combat Controller. I've always loved languages, I'm great with them, and up until recently, I would have been happy doing something with languages for the rest of my life. Don't get me wrong, I still love languages as much as I did before, and I would be happy to an extent if that's what happened, but there'd be a hole that I would never be able to fill if I didn't become an STO. I've done sports most of my life, and that's showed me a lot about myself, and that when I'm not working hard, I just can't live with myself. The military has great benefits, especially if you become an officer(What I want to be), but I wouldn't be able to sit back and read about what other guys are doing while I'm sitting by in the intelligence field. I also want to serve specifically in the Air Force, because I'm from an Air Force Family. We have friends in the Air Force, my mom works a Civilian Contractor in the SF out at Luke AFB, and my Grandfather was an MP in the Air Force.
I've done the research on the different SF roles in the Air Force, and neither PJ/CRO or SOWT really appeals to me like CCT/STO. Supporting other Special Operations Forces with CAS, guiding planes, setting up Exfiltration and Medevacs is something I want to do. I want to be a part of a team, and bring a skill to the table that they need, and that I can do well for them. I was even joking with my parents last night when we were in a sports bar that was having kareokee night, that I would rather jump out of the back of an airplane, and help coordinate CAS, MEDEVACs and Exfils, all while being shot at, than do kareokee. The thing is, I am dead serious too. I feel like I have no option in this, nor do I want one. I know this is my calling in life, to continue down that path of the warrior that I have made it my life's goal to follow, and to better myself and push my limits on a constant basis.
Currently, I don't have time to train myself for anything specific, because I'm doing football, but I push myself past where I think my limits are, and keep pushing without heed for thought. I've also read that the majority of SOF were wrestlers, and as a wrestler, I understand why. My initial intention at the beginning of the year was to not wrestle, and instead relax for a season before spring football. But based on what I've read, I've decided to suck it up and do it because it's the only mentally taxing sport I can play, and I need it. I've done a little research on ROTC, and found the University where I can do it and pursue a major in Farsi, and I'm looking for more information about the college and ROTC in general from school career councilors when I get back on Monday. I've watched videos of the indoc course and pipeline, and I know I can make it. Correct me if I'm wrong, but it's a matter of not quitting in the face of obstacles unimaginable until you stand before them, and I have made a commitment to a mentality of victory or death, because surrender is not an option for me, and never will be. I just can't comprehend quitting that, simply because I've been raised since birth and it's ingrained in me that I need to finish what I start.
Recently, my will to be an STO has been further been cemented by reading some articles on here about what individuals have done, simply because it's their job. One of them that really struck me hard, and changed my life, is the one about Staff Sgt. Harvell. It seemed like another example of AFSOC training and the type of man that makes it, but then I got to the end. His motto was "Victory or Valhalla", and he lived that every day of his life. Reading that, and even typing it strikes a chord, and I'm making a commitment to make that my life motto in honor of him, and of anyone who has worn the Beret.